Random, FUN, sad...

So...I have decided to change my blog template because the other one was boring lol. I also decided that I will change it periodically based on when I get bored of the design or how I am feeling at a given time.

Also, I'M SO EXCITED FOR TODAY! I'm gonna have awesome amounts of fun with my best friend. I don't know what we're doing for sure because it's a surprise. But I AM sure that it will be heaps and heaps of fun in teh sun :D

I will be coming back to Utah next week. I don't really wanna leave this beautiful place. I have made some good friends here too. STAY IN TOUCH DANG IT. Lol anyway I suppose what's meant for me next is not here at the moment. I will keep trusting in the Lord. That's all for now I think :) I'm gonna go upstairs now and get ready for my awesome day :D SEE YA

Big news kids! So listen up ya hear?

So here's some big news. I'm coming back to stay with my mom. I don't really know why I was supposed to come here. I do still feel like the Lord wanted me to come here. But things are not working out how I thought they would. Maybe I was just supposed to come here to make a few friends and leave. I have no idea. But it felt right and feels right that I came. If it was that I moved here to meet people, I spent a heck of a lot of money for a few friends.

As I mentioned things are not going so well here. I am having no luck whatsoever with a job. The mother of the family I'm staying with seems to think that it's because of the oil spill. It's affecting a lot of business out here right now. I am also finding that I am running out of money and therefore cannot move anywhere on my own. The family I'm staying with also changed their mind about letting me stay with them longer. They want me to leave by next Thursday.

So yes, at this point I feel that I will be coming home. I don't know exactly what I'm supposed to learn from all of this. I guess I'll see sometime down the road. That seems to happen with most trials in my life. Maybe it's just to build me and make me stronger. Workin toward that future hubby lol.

I have learned a few things here that I will not forget though. I've also experienced a lot. See ya 'round.

The Precious Few

Alrighty well, the title up there is what I would like to be known as if I ever were to become famous for my music. Not that I am counting on that to support me lol. I just thought I would let you know that. Oh and I am thinking about putting some stuff on itunes. I know I've said that before but maybe I'll actually do it now. We'll see what happens.

Also, just another topic I wanted to hit on. I am pretty sure that I am not the only girl who thinks about when they will meet Mr. Right. For those of you who already have Mr. Right you should consider yourselves lucky. I occasionally find myself in want of a family. Today was one of those days. One days like this I wonder what they will be like and when my family will come. I used to get jealous of others for having this already. I used to feel bitter that I didn't have anyone yet. I've grown a lot recently. I am finally beginning to see some of the growth that has long been in progress. I'm not the same person I was even a few days ago. Maybe this is why I haven't met Mr. Right yet. I don't think that I was ready. I need to keep myself where I should be and keep doing the things that I should do. When I am ready things will happen and not before.

I realize that I still have to grow into the kind of person that will make a good friend, wife, and mother. So I will keep doing that. I won't worry about all the time it may take for this to happen. On days like this, when I want a husband, I want a little precious baby to hold, I think of my future family and what they will be like. I am not bitter anymore though. I pray that I may ready myself for them. On days like today when I am bored and thinking about these things I pray that my future husband is readying himself as well. I also pray that, wherever he is, whatever he is doing, my future husband will be having a good day.

Adventures in Stupidity

Well, today started out much like any other. I woke up and all was good. Little did I know that I was about to embark upon an adventure *dun dun da* an adventure in stupidity as I say lol. I was feeding all the little animals around the house.

9 a.m. I had almost finished up and it was the last doggy's turn for food. So I went outside to feed him since he is an outdoor dog. I had forgotten that the previous night I had locked all the doors because I would be home alone and I guess I'm a little paranoid like that. Well the door I went out to feed buddy only locks from the outside. Since I had just woken up I guess I had forgotten this fact and since the door still opened I thought that it was unlocked. I shut the door on my way out (barefooted since I would just be out for a bit) since the indoor cat was not to go outside at all. I put Buddy's food in his bowl and went to go back inside.

The door was locked! Great! All the doors were locked. All the windows shut. I tromped down the dirt road barefooted and still in my pj's to search out a neighbor who would let me use their phone. I walked pretty far (the houses are pretty spread out here) and nobody was home. The family I am staying with would not get home till tomorrow evening. This was just dandy. I live about 10 miles from the main area of town. So I sat and waited because I knew that in this heat I would be worn out quickly. I waited for somebody to drive down the road. I waited for a neighbor to come home. I walked up and down the street some more. A big scary thunder and lightning storm came through. It was loud and close. I could see the lightning closer than I ever had before. I prayed. I prayed hard and long that I would be safe. I prayed that this would work out and that someone would come find me. I waited. I walked down the street again.

Finally someone way down the road was home and let me use their phone. I called 911 because that's all I could think of. They sent out some people to help let me in the house and I was so happy when they pulled up cuz I was expecting them to have a million keys and one would work. Or that they could shimmy something open. Or credit card something. But nope, they had no idea how to get into the house. They called a locksmith which would cost me $90 plus money for driving out here.

Just as they left, my best friend showed up. She had been trying to get a hold of me all day and I had not been answering. I had left me phone in the house since I did not want to get yucky dog food on it. She figured out what was wrong, called the people I'm staying with, found out where the extra key was (which I never woulda found), and saved me. Which took all of ten minutes tops. And she was off. I was sore and tired and hungry but very relieved and grateful. I said a prayer of thanks and went about feeding the animals again, making sure I did not lock myself out again. I made and ate some food. It wasn't the greatest food in the world but it tasted SO good right then.

The locksmith finally showed up almost 2 hours later. The dispatcher had given him a wrong address at first. Anyway, I no longer needed his services. But I still had to pay him for his time and for coming all the way out here. $45. At least it isn't $90. All in all, I was stuck outside for about 6-6 1/2 hours. But I was so glad that it wasn't more.

That was my adventure in stupidity today. Cost me $45 (possibly more later) and I felt like a loser. Learn from this and take what you wish.

A little bit of everything

Sometimes life gets boring when you are stuck in the same house all the time. This week has been better though and I've had more opportunities to get out of the house and have some awesome friends as company. I went and did some apartment hunting and will need to do that some more. It's hard stuff, let me tell ya. But I am confident that all will work out and I'm still confident that I am doing what is right.

Yesterday I spent most of the day writing a song and it was well worth it. I wrote it for my dear sister who has autism. Writing that song meant a lot to me and I really enjoyed doing it. I spent about 2 hours working out the lyrics and the music. Then I decided that I wanted to make an autism awareness song with a slide show of pictures set to my new song. It took me about 6 hours to get all the pictures and set up the video exactly how I wanted. But like I said, well worth it. If you haven't seen it and are interested, check it out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=23gBFq0kZ2A

Also, I had a really good day today and I'm so glad for that. I really needed it :)

The last thing I want to say right now is that I am going shooting tomorrow for the first time. I am a little scared to be honest. I mean guns can kill. But I think it'll be fun too. At least a good experience. Anyway, that's all for now. I'll prolly update more when I make myself a little more interesting.

Back...we'll see how long this lasts this time lol

Okay so...as you can see. I've been absent for a very long time lol. I'm going to try to get back into this. I doubt anyone will read this or care so I will keep it short lol. I'm going to make some short updates here to bring you up to speed on where I'm at in life but I'm not going to tell you everything because a ton has happened in two years. If you have questions go ahead and ask. I'll answer them.

Alright, so about my last blog 2 years ago. Go figure. I wasn't in love. I thought I was but I was fooled. That guy was not right for me. I am glad I am out of that relationship. At the same time however I miss it. Not the guy, the being in a relationship part. It's hard to go from being in a long relationship to being single again. But you know what? I've only really ever had pure love once and now that I've experienced that I know what I want. I will not settle for just any guy. I will not lower my standards. If a guy wants me he will be willing to put in the work it takes.

Which brings me to another thing. I started guitar as a way of being able to express myself. I have written about 9 or 10 songs now and hope to continue on doing that. If you hear my songs in order it will take you through the ups and downs of my love life. The good, the sad, the strong willed independence and strength, the reminiscent, the love. It's all in my songs. Who knows, maybe I can make money off of them. I think I may post them somewhere in order...just so that you may experience the roller coaster of emotions. I think it's pretty interesting myself.

This is the last thing I will talk about for now. I have begun to start a new chapter of my life. I'm young, I'm independent, and I know what I want. I just recently moved out to Florida. I'm staying with a friend out here and will be leaving as soon as possible to start my own life. It's a little scary, and I know money will be tight for a while but I know this is where I need to be at this stage in my life. I'm still looking for love. Maybe it'll turn up soon, maybe I'll be old and wrinkly before I marry. I don't know. All I know is that I am doing what I need to, love will find a way, I have awesome and amazing friends, and I will make new ones here as well. And you know what...that's good enough for me.

Bahahaha so much for keeping it short.

Wow...O.o it's been quite awhile since i updated you folks huh? Well life is going great...actually really great! Most of you already know but yes...i'm in love! It's been awesome and i just wanted to let you all know i'm still alive over here. I should use this thing more often...i forgot how much fun it was to blog it up! Umm...yes...oh i got me an ipod shuffle...well it more like was given to me by this kid that likes me but hey now i have one...i'm not complaining! Also i started learning one of my new fav. songs on the guitar and so far it's going good even tho it's quite the complicated little song. It really is a little bugger of a song! I should prolly be asleep right now but i'm not cuz i took a 6 hour nap today and well i guess that explains it. By the way can i just say how much i love the gospel...it is so GREAT! it really helps you appreciate what you know about it when you can share it with other people...and wow...i'm just SOOOOO HAPPY right now with how life is going. I'm really sorry to you guys for the random order of my thoughts tonight...i guess that's how my brain has been lately...scattered and unorganized. i'm also sorry for neglecting you guys...getting caught up in life and love has kind of taken me over lately and yeah...i'm sorry to you guys for that. i prolly talk about it more than many of you would like to hear and i don't mean to so...forgive me please! love ya all, g'night!